his truth :(

well . aku tak update smlm . aku decide jauhkan diri dari laptop .
then i'm back today . sendirian lagi .
dye da pulang ke kk . and his theory test starts today .
its time for me to leave him alone i guess .
itu yg dye mahukan :)

last saturday at akram's house
kinda fun maybe
aku ta perna jejak kaki kt umah dye en
lalu je manyak kali ar :D
well .
ta ramai yg ade . ta seperti yg dijangke .
even sha himself din show up sbb ade kt kg .
mlm baru dye dtg join kami
and . honestly . that nite kinda chaos for me :(
i couldnt control my emotions . i couldnt control myself . total lost control . dont worry . takde kerosakan teruk . kecuali hati aku yg makin parah lukenye . heee :D

yesterday .
his shocking truth awaken me from my dreams :(
aku igt da settle sumenye kt uma akram mlm tu . tp ade lagi rupenye .
at last after few hours from last msg he sent to me .
another msg received
"sha rase..b ptt tau ni.sha xnk smpan lame2 da"
then another one
"sha xsnggup da nk rahsie lame2.makin lame makin bwt sha migrain."
the truth revealed
"Sha ade no maxis baru"
and another msg
"Sory.xpela.marala sha nk mara camne pun.kalo b da xsuke dkt sha pun.xpe.sha trime.mmg da slh sha.:-( "

sha pk semudah itu utk b lepaskan sha ?
semudah itu utk b lupekan sumenye ?
semudah itu utk b katekan b tak kesah pown ?

aku mls nk berkate2 ape2 dah .
kamu pown da besar . kamu reti menilai sendiri .
kamu yg mulekan . kamu tau ape akibatnye .
u've hurt me . deeply :(
u promised me sayang .
janji kamu skrg . tataw yg mane satu je tggal .
yg mane satu je yg btul2 tulus dan ikhlas
takpela sayang .
aku doakan kamu smoge tenang menjawab peperiksaan utk 2mggu lagi :)
biar aku tggalkan kamu seketika
kamu fikirlah

kecewa lagi ;
theDibaLukaDuka